On Wednesday, after getting test after test of negatives, I got a very strong second line on my OPK. Always wanting to jump the gun, I texted my wife and she said to order our swimmers! Luckily, they were receiving a shipment of our number one donor that afternoon. I was able to (at the behest of my supervisor) leave work early to go pick them up before the office closed.
I tested Wednesday at 7:00PM and got a line as dark as the control line. Our Nurse Practitioner said to inseminate around 12-24 hours after a positive OPK, so Thursday at around 4:00PM we inseminated. Things were much less awkward and more efficient this time around. I'm definitely trying to stay positive and know that things will work out for the best, even if it doesn't happen this time around.
I've been having family issues these last few weeks that have taken a huge toll on my mental health. It hurts me so badly to know that we could be starting a family and some members aren't going to cherish the memories that we begin with our little one. At a concert on Wednesday, when the artist was singing personal songs about the pain of a parent who doesn't want you, I just lost it. But I know that I have to keep going, for my wife and our future family. I'm going to be stronger than that, and I'm not going to give my child that kind of life. I will always remember to put my baby's health and well-being ahead of mine. I'll never let my child feel unwanted or helpless. I don't even have this baby yet and I already know I would do anything to make sure it gets a happy healthy life, full of everything it could ever want.
Sorry for the emotions, things are just difficult right now! But we'll get through it.
Happy Friday!
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