After a four day weekend, I thought I would be refreshed and ready for work! I love my job, so it's not that hard. However, being back at work is just making me scrutinize every little thing that is wrong with it. The wife and I want to relocate so badly, and it's weighing heavy on my heart lately. We've been talking about buying a house with her family, and while I was initially gunning for it, I'm starting to have a change of heart. I don't know if I can live with them - for many reasons. But the main reason is that I feel so connected to a city we've visited over half a dozen times. I want to start applying to jobs there because I feel so unfulfilled in this one. I feel that I am being less favored by my supervisor over someone with less seniority who has been here less than half as long as I have.
And of course, I want our baby. I'm tired of waiting. In two weeks I'm going to have to ask for an altered schedule so I can go pick up our specimen when I ovulate. It's such a pain, and nobody at work knows that we're going through this. The Clomid is definitely making me super emotional, which is hard too. I had to step out of my office today to cry because of something that usually doesn't make me upset! I'm just a mess and I'm hoping to get out of this rut soon.
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